{when i grow up}

when i was a little girl, i wanted to be a nurse. 

God shut that door when i started fainting at the sight of blood. 

when i was a little girl, i wanted to be an artist. 

to paint beautiful pictures of flowers and trees. 

to draw and to be creative. 

when i was a little girl, i wanted to be a mommy.

 i would cradle my dolls with upmost care and gentleness. 

and when they were sick, i was sure to have the doctor {mom} fix them up in a jiffy. 

when i was a little older, i began to have the desire to be a missionary. 

i did fundraisers for belarus and haiti. 

i eventually got to go to belarus. 

my heart is still heavy for those who have so little. 

and i still hope to help them in some way. 

there are so many things that this girl wants to do with the life that God has given her.

 but with the help of a friend, i've decided what i want to be. 

when i grow up, i want to be a girl who leaves it all up to God. 

and the best part is, i don't have to wait to be that.

i can start right now.

i'm glad with that decision. 

i'm glad He knows exactly what i should do, when i need to do it. 

He's good to me. 

{all the time.}